Shadow!

Its said that music says a lot about a person. I do believe that is true, well only to an extent. For example I like a lot of different songs, for some they may be very sad songs that put you down. And I always get the same question " Whats wrong Crystal, are you depressed?" My answer was always no, other times were different. You see I like songs that has a meaning to it. A story, sometimes even something that you can relate to. Which are mostly sad songs in my case. They don't really get me sad they just simply put me to think. Which can never be bad for anyone. I was listening to the song Shadow by Ashlee Simpson. The song is about how she was her older sister's shadow for years. She never felt like she was ever the one worth looking at or for. Her parents thought more for Jessica then for her. She was the perfect child she had everything and Ashlee was left with nothing. Always second best. Which is a feeling that I know all to well. Having a sister who is in every way possible better then you. But that only makes you work harder for what you want and when you get it, no one can take that from you. That sense of pride and accomplishment. At the moment when things like that happen you don't stop to think about what's going to happen ten years from now. All you can think about is today. But the feeling isn't a good one at all. No one should have to go though that, but people do. Because as much as you say when I have kids I would never do that, that's not always true. You can never tell whats yet to happen. A lot of times history repeats itself. The good thing about that song was that she then realized that she didn't have to be her sister's shadow anymore cause people were liking her for her and not for her sister. For all the things she could do, when she showed who she really was. Once you can tell a story that caused you so much pain to everyone that's when your finally over it. "Living in a nightmare, a never-ending sleep. But now that I am wide awake my chains are finally free. Don't feel sorry for me" A good song with an even better meaning.