Thinking of you...

I can't believe that I miss you. I never miss people, unless they were very important to me. But out of all people to miss, I miss you. Your annoying, rude and much more things. I can't believe that I'm going to say this, but today I realized how funny and cool you were. I never understood why you would always start fights with everyone for no apparent reason what so ever. You would get on my last nervous, but I must admit that life without you isn't the same anymore. When you spend so much time with a person, they tend to grow on you. Especially if you grew up with them. And without you around us for the last few months, yes was relaxing and nice but at the same time you are and will always be my brother. My family, my blood so as much as I said that I hated you and I wished you wasn't born, that is a lie. I could never hate anyone no matter how hard I try, it just isn't in me. You have changed so much, not like before when you would say "I'm going to change..." this time you have. I guess its because you was kind of forced to do so. Which is a good thing. It was fun seeing you today, playing basketball with you and your boys. I must also admit that your jokes have become very laughable. Like when you said "Niggas in here do anything for two snickers bar. I could tell him right now to beat someone senseless for two snickers bar and he would do it. Your lucky your not in here cause I would have told him to do it to you." Looking at you talk and act like your so hood was funny. You would always act like it but now I know that's just how you really are. Watching you play basketball without actually playing was funny because your so tall. You was looking like freaking Yao Ming. No one could make a shot if you were there. And I can't forget about your sneakers that were literally called NDG. Which you said stands for "No Darn Good." I do miss you and wish you come home soon. I hope you stay the way you are right now.